TOMORROW IS OCTOBER

WOW TOMORROW IS OCTOBER, I MADE IT THOUGH SEPTEMBER, I STILL HAVE A PANIC ATTACKS BUT NOT AS OFTEN WITH MEDICINE THE DOCTOR GAVE ME IT IS HELPING, BUT I STILL HAVING HEADACHES A LOT I'M GOING TO A SURGEON, THAT WORKS ON YOUR MOUTH AND HE IS GOING TO GRIND DOWN THE BONES IN MY MOUTH SO MY DENTURES WON'T HURT ANYMORE. THEY WERE THINKING ABOUT PUT POST IN BUT THEY COST OVER 3,000 DOLLARS AND VOC. REB. WON'T HELP ME PAY FOR THEM SO THEY SAID THEY WOULD PAY FOR THE GRIND OF THE BONE DOWN. I DON'T KNOW WHICH DAY YET I GO TALK TO MY COUNSEL TOMORROW AND THEN GO FROM THERE. I KNOW IT WILL BE ON A FRIDAY SO IT WILL LET YOU ALL KNOW LATER. I HOPE SOME OF YOU ARE STILL LOOKING AT THIS BLOG, CAUSE I TRY TO KEEP IT UP. SOON IT WILL BE MY BIRTHDAY, ON THE 12, WITH OUT MERRILL AGAIN. BUT I WILL BE FIND BECAUSE OF MY FRIEND. HE HAS SOMETHING PLAN AND WE WILL CELABRATE MY GRANDSON KALEB'S BIRTHDAY ON THE 13TH WITH HIM TOO. THEN HE HAS A GRANDDAUGHTER THAT HAS A BIRTHDAY ON THE 19TH SO I MAKING HER A BABY BASINET FOR THAT.
SO I KNOW I WILL BE OK, WITH GOD HELP AND THE BLESSING THAT KARL, GAVE ME IN AUGUST IT HAS HELP AND TALKING WITH HIM AND DIANE, WITH CARRIE, KARL'S, WIFE I GOT THINGS OFF MY SHOULDER AND KARL, TOLD ME TO REMEMBER THE ATTONEMENT THAT JESUS, PAYED FOR ARE SINS AND THAT WHAT EVER HAPPEN IN THE PASS HE, HAS FORGIVIN ME, AND THAT HE WANTS ME TO MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE AND FIND HAPPINESS AND THAT MERRILL, IS OK AND TO LET GO SO HE DO HIS WORK UP THERE. BUT I, FIND IT HARD TOP FORGIVE YOURSELF. I CAN FORGIVE OTHERS OF THEIR FAULT BUT HOW DO I FOR GIVE ME, WORK ON IT DAY BY DAY, BUT MAYBE NOW THAT I TALK TO KARL, AND CARRIE, WITH DIANE, MY THEPISTS I CAN MOVE ON. KARL, SAID HE LOVES ME AND IS GLAD I'M HIS MOTHER.
I'M THANKFUL TO GOD, FOR MY CHILDREN AND GRANDCHILDREN I LOVE THEM SO. I HOPE SOME OF YOU WILL READ IS AND ANSWER ME BACK.
LOVE YOU IRIS

MADE IT THOUGH LABOR DAY

HI EVERYONE, MADE IT THOUGH LABOR DAY, WITH HELP OF MY FRIEND. HO HOW I HATE HOLIDAYS, WITH OUT MERRILL. BUT I'M GETTING USE TO THEM EVEN , I'M GETTING BY THEM, SOMETIMES I , HAVE TO TALK TO MY THEPISTS AND IT HELPS.
KARL GAVE ME A GOOD BLESSING A COUPLE WEEKS AGO IN IT HE SAID THAT JESUS LOVES ME AND THAT I'M HIS DAUGTHER, AND HE ATTONE FOR ALL OF ARE SINS AND WE NEED TO PUT THEM IN THE PAST AND FORGIVE YOURSELFS. AND GOD IS ONLY A HAND A WAY ALL I HAVE TO REACH OUT AND HE WOULD TAKE HOLD OF IT, AND HELP ME THOUGH ALL THINGS. AND KEEP PRAYING LIKE I DO. I SEEN KARLA YESTERDAY AT BYU WE START WORK NEXT TUESDAY. I THINK WHEN I GO BACK TO WORK IT WILL HELP ME GET MY MIND OFF THINGS AND I WON'T MISS MERRIL SO MUCH, AND I WILL BE OUT OF THE CONFLICT OF MICHAEL'S AND ELISE'S PROBLEMS. I LOVE YOU ALL SO WRITE YOU LATER .
LOVE IRIS