I Miss Him

I Miss him very much; I talk with Jay Steineckert, he said they would be days like this. He told me some days I would feel good then other days out of the blues I would be feeling down and lonely and crying. Well Friday night was not a very good night. My little grandson Tanner would not settle down, so I held him till he went to sleep, and then put down by his dad with his bottle, then in a few seconds he was in my room crying so I let him get up in my bed and sleep with me. Then when he woke up he was screaming so I told Michael to come get him. He still would not stop screaming and I don't when he stop cause i went back to sleep. And when Elise came home later from work I was in my bed crying, I was hurting so bad. She thought it was my back and I told you know that it was not my back. That it was my chest, then she ask me if I took one of the pills the Doctor gave and I had not so I got up and took one then I went in the living room and sat with for a while tell I calmed down then I went back to bed. I loved Merrill so much and I am going to miss a lot. I love all of you family and friends.
Love Iris