Loneiness

I have never felt so much loneliness in my life even when people are around me. I had a good talk with Jay Steineckert , yesterday. And went to excise class. there was a message at the class Dr. Garret, had from President Hinckey, it was about love and compassion and forgiveness. I thought to myself I need to for give Merrill, for leaving me especially when he told me he would stick around till after Christmas. I talk to Jay, about this and he ask me if I talk to Merrill I told him yes and I told him that I was sad and hurting in side. Today I went to see Becky Wheeler, she does energy therapy, she takes the bad energy out and leaves the positive energy, in you. and it is possiable because, I tried it before and it help me. I went and drop off some things to Meghan and Neil, house yesterday too. Neil , wasn't home but it was nice to see Meghan, and Peter, Laura, and Tom. Jack, wasn't home yet. I had a nice visit with them. I just wish I would dare to drive up and see you Margie and Dennis, and Ed and Marion, and Donna. But I'm , afraid I would get lost. I think I could make it to Tremonton, but not sure you guys need to write me back and tell me how to get there. I better go now love you all Iris